We've been very excited about adopting again for quite a while now, as you know if you are a long term reader. We have always thought that we would start an adoption right after we got through the closing on our house. Now that the closing has come and gone, we've really devoted the last month to praying for some specifics in our next adoption. The month ended yesterday and we both knew that we are not to go forward right now. I'm not sure why, but we are currently having some challenging times with two children. (Poor Julia gets the blog coverage because she's young enough that she can't read, but she is actually the easier of the two.) Challenging is kind of an understatement at times; desperate is probably a more accurate description of how I often feel trying to navigate these two through life. We have been seeking professional help, and in one case, probably will always have to.
We really don't know if these two are the reason the Lord is directing us to delay an adoption or not. The reality is that we are planning on adopting children that require at least specialized health care, but quite possibly they may have attachment issues as well. Unfortunately, in third world countries, the physically sick are not valued and often receive even less care than the "average orphan," so we have to be prepared.
My brain is rather exhausted in the adoption research department, but we have learned a lot in the last month and I think we have a bit more direction when we re-visit beginning another international adoption in the future. And I really hope that we feel led to move forward in the somewhat near future - we aren't getting any younger!
God just never seems to be in as big of hurry as me!